Friday, April 13, 2007
Helo guys, gals, ladies and gents~
Been such a looooooooooooooooooooooooooonnnngggg tym since i blogged. Nw im here blogging becoz sumbody literally "begged" me to do it.. xD haha~ being a gd guy, I do have to make that person happy.. *Im sooo gd! =P* *pictures myself with a halo and shining bright light from the sky* *coughs*
OKAY!. back to thr reality.. hm..wait.. have to think what to blog.. hm.. *think think*
erk.. darn it.. i dun have anything much to say..>.<.. usually i come to blog when i have that feeling in me to blog.. Lol..
and there is nth today..~ hm.. lol..
5 months have past, ever since that faithfully and gd event happened in my life. Its rather short, but no less, I do have memories that I would remember.. In this 5 months, gd things, bad things happened, no less challenging the decision that I have made, plantng the seeds of doubt into my soul, but, Time, made me notice and made me learn, that all this doubts were nothing.
Some people said that at the start, it is the first few months that everything would be so fun, so gd, and u want it to go on forever, But, it is when after the first few months, that the real test comes, when you have to endure what events that may come, and time..
Haha.. Dun even knw why did I write on this kinda thing...-.- maybe i really lost out on things to say.. hum..
I have been bored, at home or what, no GAMES to play in the comp, darn it..
my xbox is decomposing inside.. 1 day the hardware inside it would start to scream and come after me.. for I have not been using the xbox for such a long time..lol.. no games for xbox too, ever since " The Rise oF Xbox 360" -.- .. seriously, Im GAME DEPRIVED! argh.. the feeling is lyk a addict without drugs! experiencing the withdrawal symptoms! argh..
Shivering.....
Vomitting! *bleah!* *Urgh*
Hallucinations!! *Hello there!* *waves to thin air*
DEATH! *hack!* *Urgh* *Ack* *Gasp!* Struggles*....
-_-. yea.. whatever.
LOL.. im being so lame in this blog. Really have nothing to say.. haha..
Jokes~
A blind man is travelling to Texas. He feels the seats of the train and says to the man next to him he says "These seats sure are big" to which the man replies "Everything is bigger in texas". He then checks into is hotel and goes to the bar. He feels the beer glass and says to the bartender "The glasses sure are big" to which the bartender says "Everything is bigger in Texas". The blind man the asks to go to the lavatory.The bartender gave him directions. On the way he takes a wrong turn, slips and falls into the swimming pool. Scared to death he shouts "Dont flush!!!! Dont flush!!!!"....................
Many people are travelling on a plane........Over the Atlantic the plane loses power......The captain announces "We're losing altitide so we are going to have to throw out the luggage". The passengers agree and all the luggage is thrown out. After a few minutes they lose a second engine, the captain announces "We have just lost another engine...we have to throw out the cabin baggage". So the cabin baggage is also thrown out. Just five minutes later a third engine blows out. The captain announces "We are close to land people, but we have to throw out some passengers too". There is an uproar in the cabin. Undaunted the captain continues "Passengers will be thrown out in alphabetical order. A- any asians on board??... no? B - any blacks on board??....no......." Suddenly a little black boy asks his father "Dad, what are we??" His dad replies "Tonight son, we are Zulus................."
A woman went running to her husband with the complaint that the medicine man had insulted her. Upset, the husband went to the chemist in question and asked him why. The man whined "Listen to my side first. When i woke up, i stubbed my toe, there was no hot water, the electricity went off, when i tried to come here, i had a flat tire, then I handed wrong medicines to customers. Then the phone rang and I banged my head against the cash counter. I picked up...It was your wife and she asked me how to use a rectal thermometer...I swear...All I did was tell her...
Visiting the psychiatric ward, a man asked how doctors decide to institutionalize a patient. “Well,” the director said, “we fill a bathtub, then offer a teaspoon, a teacup and a bucket to the patient, and ask him to empty the tub.” “I get it,” the visitor said. “A normal person would use the bucket because it’s the biggest.” “No,” the director said. “A normal person would pull that rubber plug.”
Ciao~ hahaha...
penned my thoughts at [12:02 PM]
Saturday, March 03, 2007
For the first time in my life, I really, feel like leaving for the afterlife. Whatever.
penned my thoughts at [12:25 AM]
Friday, January 19, 2007
CAme here to blog~ got sum feel~ nah.. its gone.. nvm.. No mood anyways~Seen things that made me unhappy~ and sumhow... grr..
Whatever~ im goin to bed. nitez.
penned my thoughts at [11:04 PM]
Tuesday, January 02, 2007
Alrights! im back as promised yesterday to tell abt the good thing that.. well, happen..xP
wa.. tok abt it oso a lil ps..xP..
anyway.. as u all have noticed, in my msn nick, there is a counter of days right?.. and if you all guys, who i think are smart enough to know such things....
Yes yes, I got a gal friend ready.. >.<.. if you guys really have to know.. got some people who keep asking about it.. I hope tat this would be the ANS u all wanted so much.. and stop asking me ready~~ =x
okok.. now.. at least have to give explaination bah..
Firstly, her name.. is Xin er..^^
Well! what i can say is that she is juz perfect for me... so i wun elaborate any further abt her looks and all that.. becoz she is mine to look onli! muahahaha!!
Other guys, Hands off!!! xP
Hm.. well, her char... she is very very sweet.. very very cute~ wahaha.. (as in.. to meee~~_
Dunno what to say about her though.. hm... I can say is that i really love to hug her a lots... and i think she enjoys that too.. right? >.<..
She also cares alot for others.. thats what i love her the most about..~~ weee~ xD
hm.. wad else to elaborate.... i dunno.. so ya.. i shall stop here 1st.. maybe wen i got more of the idea.. den i edit again!
penned my thoughts at [7:25 PM]
Monday, January 01, 2007
Hi~ This post is going to be a long 1.. as expected i guess. Ha~ its longggggggg and of course, full of emotions..
1st post of the year.
1/1/07. Happy new year to all.
New year resolution : most imptant=> (actually its the most wanted wish tat i hope to get granted ever since everything broke up.) I wish that we all could be together again.
Ya.. i dunno.. so many things happed during this time of not blogging, as wad jia hui had said.. Sad, happy..im juz feeling mixed now.. lyk a bottle filled wif coke, sprite, lemon tea, 100 plus, water, and all the liquids add up together. haha..
Actually i also dunno what to really say about us.. but i have sumthing important to tell her..
" I know you once said that when u are very close to a person, you tend to be very sad when he/she disappoints you.. and i guess, you might think that I have definetly disappointed you allot.. thats y u nvr dared to speak up to me. But, I do want to say that, are you that sure that i have disappointed you? even though yes, i was in fault that time when i nvr spoke with you. or choose not to speak with you.
Yet. I am still here, willing to listen to what you wish to say.. its still whether you want to speak to me or.. As i said.. My ears have a permanent resident card with you.. but i know, maybe now.. you wun get to see this lil post anyways.. since you so ever rarely come up to the internet.. hah..
I still remember the times when we were together, wen i promised ( wif nick actually.. ) to bring you to all around singapore to eat the best foods.. I haven forget about it.. even till now.. I made up a list of places to bring you round.. before your bdae, wishing to be able to bring you to these places during that day of urs. But, its juz not the same now~ aint it? The plan never did come true~
and now, as such, things are still advancing lyk nothing, just going abt with our own lives, not toking or caring abt each other..
Before i carry on.. I would love to ask you this question.. Did you think of others when u made this decision of yours? Coz this decision of urs is full of selfishness. Made everyone unhappy, and you ignoring everything and continue being so called "happy"? Its like, you are juz concerned about u and you ONLY. If people were to be like this. I can tell you dis world would not be a world. Its devoided of selflessness, love..
You can type and talk abt how much you love your friends.. but, is that really true love? to your friends?
If you really love a friend..
-Accept him/her for who he/she is..
-Dun pick on her/him about everything.. Its their character. That is what makes them unique!
-Sometimes, even though a friend may hurt you.. you shouldnt be petty and be angry at small things.. of course, if he/she does sumthing very bad.. then nobody wud stop u from flaring up!
-Share your secrets with each other, tell about ur crushes, loves, anything! ur friend would definetly do the same to you.. Its what makes the relationship special.. It lets them know.. that you trust them..
-Trust! thats the most impt..
well.. There are other priciples of being a good friend.. each and every one of us here will know..
But, I juz wanna let everyone know this special person.. He has been a great pal, a brother. He was in our gang in since secondary sch.. but he is the one which has been the closest to me even after secondary school, we often meet up and all that too.. His name, is Ben Tan Yang Meng! XD
This, few para or sentences are dedicated to him... " I really wanna thank him for being with me for soooo long.. since sec 1 onwards.. I still remember the times i had with him.. When we went out, had lots of fun, trouble (haha!) The tyms we played bball, the times when i was unhappy, he would come along and cheer me up.. and of course, vice versa.. And I also remember the tyms we had our lil "men's talk" when we tok about our crushes and loves.. I really enjoyed thouse times.. Thanks for sharing with me your secrets, as I have shared mine with you.. Remeber that time we even liked the same gal? haha.. Ended up in quite a bad way.... not?.. In the end we even sat in BK and talk about the gal! XD.. ahh.. the irony..
Of course, there were sumtyms that he was really an ass.. AHAHA.. some people were very pissed with his "flower-hearted" (flirty) behaviour.. There were tyms, that i too was very unhappy with his behaviour.. But, I accepted the way he was.. how his charactor is..
Not only him.. i know myself that I was an ass to him at times too.. that i know! ahahaha! made him fustrated at times too.. But, im wanna say thanks, that he put up with all that fustration for me.. realii appreciated that.. He being there during some of my darkest moments in my life.. that i can nvr forget, nor can i ever say thanks too..
To me, he is an irreplacable brother..^^ And im glad to have a true friend like him.. at least.. like that, i can say that i have not lived my life in vain bah.. Having 1 true friend.. It isnt really that bad.... after all....
THANKS BRO! WOOOOTS!
Argh.. long post... maybe ill continue sum other tym.. maybe 2molo... ahahaha.. laziness overcomes me.. but the nxt post is abt sumthing good that happened!! sweet sweet thing! XD
*hint hint* ahahahaha...
Ciao~
People become friends to not become lonely..
The way you are treating your friends.. its no wonder....
Pity..
penned my thoughts at [10:46 PM]
Sunday, November 19, 2006
Which Final Fantasy Character Are You?
Final Fantasy
Oo~~ Im cloud.. weee~~~ xP
penned my thoughts at [5:45 PM]
Saturday, September 30, 2006
Hey man! guys peeps, beautiful ladies and gals who read dis post im making..
I wanna say that it has been a very long time since i blogged.. long tym isnt it? =D anyways, sumtyms, is juz plain laziness which claims me, and i dun wan to blog, but der are also tyms when i choose not to blog..=) hope u guys understand ok..~~
Anyways, i think dis lil post im making is gonna be very long.. i dunnmo, maybe.. maybe not.. depends on my mood.. heh~ Much as my feelings are kinda mixed up.
Alrite so here goes.. my mind is very clogged up now filled with qns from all over me.. Actually im oso not sure wad i wanna type here.. I wana laugh at my stupidity..haiz..
I always wonder.. y are der so mani conflicts within all of us..? y are ppl actually placing fake smiles when ever i walk around?? Even though people say we are united, that we are always together.. I reali wanna laugh at the people who reali said that.. who ever noes wad is goin on with us? that we are actually juz scattered sand on the floor. wads unity? its juz all a cover up.. each time i walk with em, all i can see is juz how ppl deceit each other.. smiling and laughing yet its devoid of feelings.. Im so swamped by such things.. peeps reading dis may think im thinking too much, but i can see.. maybe not true for sum, which i noe.. but many, many are as such i said.. i juz hav that gut feeling which tells me..~~ some how i juz wish i dun hav such a gut feeling.. that i wud be deceived without knowing.. den i wud be much happier..silly me..
Why do such things happen to me~~ to invoke such strongs feelings in my heart.. my soul actually tears each time.. and a scar is formed.. it nvr heals.. anyways.. life has to go on.. Am i a very complex person?
I am glad, that sum people, do put their trust in me, their utmost trust.. reali, im very honoured in the way they trust me.. but, am i reali worth that trust? dun u all fear that 1 day i wud tell it to the whole world?
Alotta things happened in dis few months.. sad~ happy~, i realised how fragile people, humans can actually be.. I myself am also a human.. yet, haiz..well, i dun reali noe wad to say.. Miscommunication is such a powerful thing.. it can coz distrust.. so much..
I had my fair share of people sharing their feelings to me.. again, its always miscommunication.. You mite think, wao, KC is so gd, he can understand people feelings and giv out gd advice.. he enlightened me..~ in sum way.. i duno, but always, wen i see or hear such words, my heart wud be so heavy.. for sum reason.. im not sure..wen people say, hey ur a great fren, or wad.. wad goes in my mind is that.. im not as gd as u think.. der ar so mani things inside me.. u wud see my flaws eventually.. and u mite turn out to dislyk me in a way or another~ i wun say now.. but in the near future? who noes? Today we can be of bestest frens.. but wad about tomorrow? nxt week? or the year after? life is always that unpredictable.. In someways...~~ i always crap.. wad i speak and tell people is all BULLSHIT.. CRAP! all of it.. Im so tired at times.. i juz wanna stop everything, and disappear for a few days, mths, i duno..but i know i couldnt.. i cant.
My life is such a miserable 1.. when im alone.. but ill always rmbr the tyms i had.. namely " XIN ER! LEE PHIN! JIA HUI! NICOLE! NICKY! AARON!" I shout out to u all.. i really thank you for the times u all hav been with me.. we went crazy a lot of times.. and i will hold em dear..
My lovelife nowadays?..hm.. i dun reali hav a love life at all.. nvr one since 1 was young.. At least.. who wud actually pity me? haha.. who wud actually take note of a kid who disappears and appears w/o much of a trace..~
anyways.. der are a thousand or a million things in my mind and heart.. you said u had a heavy heart? try my life. I dun reali wan to say much.. this is a public journal~ i onli type wad i wanna let u peeps noe.. i am sorry if tat hurts ur feelings..but its always the truth tat hurts.. doesnt it? =)
*for all the people who think that im talking about you.. plz plz, i onli say wad i feel.. i cant tell u to stop thinking about it, Im juz.. well, i juz say, ill leave it to u peeps.. u all hav ur own mind.. ^^ i juz hope that i dun offend anybody in dis post of mine..*
A million words cant express my tots.. much least a lil blog lyk dis.. anyways, tomorrow is another day..wad can i do? Smile of course! =)
my fav phrase " Relax. Im Listening."
And i do listen..=)
Well, wad can i say.. hm.. maybe by the tym u read finish dis lil post, wadever feelings tat i had said here wud be gone..^^ so ya~~ Dun worry. i will still be the old me..=). Ciao~
penned my thoughts at [9:54 PM]